I am shaking with anger right now. Just shaking with it. Feeling the years that have been stolen, STOLEN, by the abuse.
What really makes me mad is that it comes out in tears, which makes me even angrier.
Tears, at least, were acceptable responses growing up. Not feeling well was also another response.
In ACA I learned the phrase, "Let time take time."
It just takes time, I will feel the feelings and heal, but right now it is really hard!
Self-care triumphs today:
1. Put on make up
2. Picked up around my back yard
3. Logged some additional time at work
4. Put up my curtains early
5. Edited my application
6. Got my boss' approval for a recommendation I wrote (for me)
7. Checked my college inbox (no updates)
8. Read today's Courage to Change
9. Read today's Strengthening my Recovery
10. Made a meal without internal drama
11. Positive positive internal dialogue
12. Watched the clouds go by and listed to Ella Fitzgerald for 15 minutes
13. Morning Prayer
Today I will let time take time, and just do the next thing.
Today I will remember that self care reflects acceptance of God's love for me.
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